When there is no one, no living soul around... nothing warmth with no one on your side, when you come home to an empty and dysfunctional home, when you have no one to eat and sleep with.....as loneliness gets to befriend me.
It is interesting that I get something to look forward to something pure and alive, free from control and logic.
True to his himself. And I get to see him and interact with him.
Even though I get to do it everyday, I am not tried, bored ..instead it is like time passes.
Cleaning up his mess can get really tiring, but just like a mother who has given birth, she forgets her pain and tiredness when she sees her baby.
Although,
my mum did not see me off to work, ah boy did.
He knows when I am awake and it is his food time.
And I get to kiss and hug him before I start the day.
When someone looks forward for me to be back at the end... imagine you are the only one he is waiting for.
I am reminded that I am important in his life.
I am enough for him.
Even though it seems that he looks forward for his meals rather than seeing me.... his action when he delayed eating right after I have given him food showed me that,
there is something more important that he and I need to be alive.. that is human touch.
It means he eats heartily without a care, only after he had been given hugs and kisses.
His need for reassurances , affirmed love, kindness and acceptance are a reflection of what I need as well.
More than a physical body, craving for connection and to be secure in this relationship is vital for life.
When I am his reflection... what I do he copies even though he is... a pet?
The way I sleep.... eat.... irritations.
I have reminded to be gentle with myself....
But, what amazes me the most is his innate ability to connect with a thing so much bigger.
His connection with me really touches my heart and soul... and it is so healing.
How many humans out there can you even have a connection?
Either they just can't get it, or too busy to want to connect.
But, at the end of the day... it is the very thing, that is beautiful and important, a longing we have heart and soul.
To be known by another and be accepted no matter what.
It does make sense that we are made to live forever with the Lord. And it will never be dull or boring or purposeless.
Amen
