Believe

When I run at the thought of facing the struggle ring.
When I realise I have been avoiding what needs courage.
When fears have kept building walls within,
letting nothing through.
When the lies of being safe have kept me in prison, with nothing to cry for.
The cold restless soul feels the absence of her lover in sight.
Dreams are fading when the reality speaks louder than the inner voice.
Seeking for an embrace to bring me back.
The warmth of a loved one, reminding me I am still here and alive.
Striving what means to me as if my life depends on it,
brings me to the existence that I am.

Running around like a headless chicken

You will know whether you love something or someone,
the fear of losing, the feeling that you are not good enough, the fear of being truthful for fear of not being understood or worse accepted, the mask to portray that you are without a flaw, not wanting to be a burden or being looked upon as being helpless.
When it gives you the most heartache, when you sacrifice your life for, when u know you cannot go on life, that you will be like a living corpse without..., when you run anywhere except facing the pain, risk it takes, when it means going against the ones you looked upon, when you feel alive, you are suddenly soulful and passionate....When it is more than earning a living, when it means like food and water to you.
You will know it is LOVE!

Building my sense of ownership of who I am

The ingredients of flowering,
growing up a little at a time.
 Taking my time to mature.....
Passion, hmm, but dies down, still need to have.
Constancy in committing to what nurtures and embraces.
Like keeping a point to meet up your good friend.
Vision, must be kept in sight all the time, like a tap on the shoulder to stay focus and on track.
Must take it seriously, hard to maintain when someone is not watching, need to remind oneself, encourage oneself to stay on track, single minded, keep it simple, build your confidence.
No right or wrong, only in listening hard, keeping calm, questioning, can one know whether the practise is sufficient and heading in the right direction.
To meditate on what I have done in my heart, mind and soul.
Asking for grace to be truthful.
Slowly, one should discover one's sense of self worth, purpose, meaning and joy.
This everlasting fruits can never be taken away or replaced. No amount of misleading results and words and thoughts would take you away from your trueself.
You will find confidence like you never did before.
Congrats, you found U. One Special U!

Making sense of what means most

I used to think certs was the entry to being successful and happy.
But, what about being able to relate which gives a positive sense of belonging?
If I can't be accepted, surely my credentials would?
Or being seen as someone capable would mean that?
The need for attention, craving for love becomes a poison that repels rather than attracts,
rejects, rather than accepts.

Cutting through the darkness of the forest that surrounds my heart and mind

Bleak, cold...
Windy winds...
I lie awake... I sleep too much...
I lie aimlessly,
 I see bits and pieces of what I ought to accomplish.
Afterwards, that I would be safe, I would find meaning and purpose in the running around.
No, it did not give me a sense of direction where I should head or the confidence that was sipping away.
All the ought and should...
Blasting in my mind, what I should do to become what everyone else is doing everyday.
As if it was the only sign that signals what success and to be happy meant.

Unity

I am come to realise that
love without coordinating,
cheering for others,
respecting others for their time and concern,
recognising you are small and humility awakens and hearkens,
not insisting who is right or our way is the best and what should be.

We will still be
 in the struggle for power and recognition.
There would still be no peace.
Until, one truly does it with love,
not comparing or competition,
it would be meaningless.

We are many parts but one body.
When we hurt others, we hurt ourselves.
If we accept others,
 we can be at peace even when things don't go according to the way we want them to.

Adapting

Intelligence used in the  right context in the working environment is vital to one's efficiency.
Finding out what makes the person's taste such as how much ...is really about being intuitive and making the effort to remember each and every individual.
Adapting to one's environment is one's choice to survive. But, to cater the concern to the exact detail is the difference between a brilliant job done and just doing your job.